sorry for the delayed update...I actually got back to Texas two weeks ago Friday, in time to do the MS150. Which was miserable, since I came back from Wisconsin with a cold to end all colds, and the wind on the first day was horrendous. Nothing like a 20 mph gusty headwind sucking your will to live for 100 miles to really make an event memorable. Then my riding buddy quit at lunch the first day, and I tried to ride out the 2nd day with a group that was too fast, and my gears were slipping when I got out of the saddle to climb...it was awful, and I bagged it at lunch the 2nd day myself. Worst. MS150. Ever. (I actually had written part of a longer ride report last week, but screw it. It sucked. I hated it. The End.)
As for my grandma, I'm glad we went up to visit. She was in and out of consciousness, and very weak, but she was still in her right mind most of the time. We were able to talk to her, and she knew we were there to see her. I hate to say that we were there to say our goodbyes, but that's probably the case. It looks like she's not going to recover enough to leave the nursing home, and they're expecting either the cancer will take her or pneumonia will. The estimate when I left was about a month, either way. At this point, they're hoping it will be the pneumonia, since it's a kinder way to go. I'm going to stop there, because that whole situation just makes me want to kick God in the teeth. I mean, she's in her mid-80s and she's led a mostly good life, but if anyone deserves to go quietly in her sleep in her own bed, it's my grandma. The thought of her dying in pain, helpless, in a nursing home? I know it's never about deserve, but that sucks.
So anyway, haven't really done much of anything of note since I got back, except gain 4 lbs and lose 2, ride my bike some, go to work, and try to find new and creative methods to make my nose stop running. (I think I've finally gotten over the cold, though my nose still runs when I try to drink on the bike, which is driving me CRAZY.)
Posted by Joy at April 24, 2008 10:20 PM