hey--what's up with the stats?

If you pay attention to such things, you may notice that my progress and sidebars have changed. I am now claiming 186 as my start weight, and here's my logic behind that.

As I mentioned in the last post, I'm starting to get disheartened by my dwindling weekly average losses. I've also been avoiding WW meetings because my nude current weight is still 3.4 lbs above my clothed start weight from the last time I was going to meetings. So in other words, if I resumed meetings now, I would show a gain of at least 5 lbs from when I started. Depressing.

Secondly, it's a lot easier to kick back and relax when I've already lost over 30 lbs. I can say to myself, "you know what? You're not nearly as fat as you used to be. Just have the damned Klondike bar."
In order to get my motivation back, I think I need to forget how fat I used to be, and start over from where I am now.

The reality of it is, I'm still over 50 lbs. heavier than I want to be, and haven't made significant lasting progress on that goal in nearly 2 years. So, I've moved my old successes to the bottom of the sidebar and made January 19, 2006 the start of a whole new journey.

The start weight might change tonight, since I am going to that meeting I've been avoiding. Rather than try to pick up where I left off, I'm just going to register as a new member. I'm also going to go in with an honest effort, and check my "look at me, I've already lost 30 lbs and know I don't really need to treat this shit like it's gospel to lose weight so I'm really doing YOU a favor by showing up" attitude at the door. Not that I was ever bitchy about it, but you can only hear the term "BLT" so many times in a context that does not involve bacon* before it makes you want to punch somebody. And I'm not saying that I'm going to start getting all WW-buzzwords on you, just saying that I'm not going to roll my eyes, grit my teeth and hit the tune-out button every time the leader uses one. After all, they became catchphrases for a reason, right?

So anyway, I'd better get going now if I expect to make the meeting at 7:00.

*well, maybe sometimes. (I was going to link BLT, but work's Net Nanny won't let me google "bites licks & tastes")