getting better, sort of

I've been going through a serious dry spell where motivation is concerned. I haven't been to weightwatchers.com in about a week, and I haven't exactly been missing it, Bob. Though I'm pleased to say that I've been eating sort of healthily. Sort of. There's been some truffles and cheese enchiladas (not in the same meal). Still, I haven't put on any weight, and the majority of my food has fallen into the "everyone thinks this is healthy" category. Fruit, lean meat, whole grain things. I'm doing well, even though I can't seem to give an ounce of flying fuck whether I am or not. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing.

The gym is another matter...I'm not even sure where my card is. I had it the last time I went, and then put it somewhere. That was a week ago. (Again with the not caring.) I do intend to get back with the running in the next week or so, because I think I can do it without hurting my knees now and it's starting to get cooler outside.

The whole gym-missing problem is not entirely due to my zero-motivation problem. I mean, it is, but it's also influenced by my 3-days-driving-home-from-the-Galleria-during-rush-hour problem, my church-meeting-every-night problem, my fresh-hell-of-Rob's-cluster-migraines problem (now with harrowing trip to the ER action!), my it's-been-six-damn-months-since-the-wedding-and-the-thank-yous-aren't-out-yet problem, and my holy-shit-is-my-bank-account-balance-depressing problem. I expect these things to be clearing up, though, since my Galleria training class is over, there are no more meetings till Sunday, Rob's migraines seem to have tapered off to once a day, I finally started on the thank yous at least, and I just got paid. Now, if the house would magically clean itself, and the laundry was self-folding and putting-away, I could officially declare myself out of chaos territory.

So, today I've been trying to turn the diet trend around. Everything I've eaten except for a lean pocket for lunch and a handful of M&Ms has been on my core list. I've planned a meal for tonight (this--I love you, foodfit--and possibly corn on the cob, if the HEB has nice-looking corn when I go to get the tomatoes and cilantro) that is totally core, and it actually sounds appetizing to me right now. This could change at any moment, but for right now things are looking up. I don't have any meetings or crises or horrendous traffic to deal with tonight, so I might actually make it to the gym too. Maybe while the chicken is marinating.

So, you folks on the weight loss wagon--see that speck on the horizon behind you, staggering all over the road, looks like it's maybe waving at you? That's just me trying to catch up again. There's still a lot of road between us, but I'm gaining on you.