191.5 on Rob's scale this morning. So liking that, considering that I've been seeing 193s for the past two weeks. Not sure how it happened, other than my TOM's over. I totally overdid it with chips and guacamole last night...I imagine I'll see that later in the week.
I really am trying to be a good eater. I did okay yesterday right up till 5:30, when I remembered that I had a packet of guacamole at Rob's house, and stopped at the convenience store for some chips. I was super hungry, so I opened the bag in the car. I was only going to eat a couple, but ended up with about a handful before I got to the house. Then I broke out the guac and--well, let's just say it wasn't pretty. The lesson learned here, I think, is that I need to start snacking in the afternoon again. That way, I won't be obsessively hungry on the way home.
but that's okay, because I can start over today, right? Only I've already been blindsided by a blueberry muffin...I suppose I can make that up at lunch. I may go over to panera again. I'm a little disappointed that I didn't really like their strawberry poppyseed salad. It was really pretty, all different colors and fruity and stuff...but it just didn't taste very good. Would have been better without whatever freak dressing they put on the lettuce. I could go to Black-eyed Pea again, I suppose--I've been wanting to try their blackberry spinach summer salad. The description looks really good, but I haven't been quite brave enough yet. Creature of habit--I get salmon there, every time I go. Love me some salmon. Lately they've been undercooking it a little, though, so maybe now is a good time to give the blackberry salad a try.
In other news, I wrote on the attendance slip at church the other day that I wanted a staff member to call me about weddings and pre-marital counseling...I've been checking my messages obsessively for two days, and still nothing. I know that they've seen it, because I got a call from the children's church coordinator about my volunteer stuff there, and she mentioned that they had talked about it in their staff meeting. And yet, here we are on Wednesday, and no one has called me. I'm hoping that it's just that the pastor is going to call me, and since he just got back from a mission trip, I'm happy to give him a couple days to recuperate. But I'm so impatient. We've been waiting on his agreement to do the wedding so that we can set a date. I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but only 9 MONTHS. Tops. It's not like I'm trying to find the coolest wedding spot in Houston or anything, but we need to book a reception venue pretty soon, and it's all hanging on the church calling me back.
It's really just as well, though, because I'm still not sure what I'm going to say when they do call. The church is pretty new, we still don't have a building...but it's really, really important to both of us that our pastor does the wedding. How do you ask someone to officiate your wedding? I've been going over it in my head..."We would be so honored if..." "Would you consider..." "I know you've got a lot going on, with starting up the new church and everything, and I don't know what your plans are for next spring, but..." AAARRGH. I wish I was one of those people who didn't have to have the whole speech all planned out so I don't make an ass of myself. And then I usually do anyway.
I also have this irrational fear that he's going to say no. He'll be too busy, or he won't think we should get married. I'm also afraid that we'll get through all the counseling, and fail the exit exam or something (no, I don't think there's an exit exam). "I'm sorry, your test results indicate that you are just not ready to get married. See me again in a year." I am just one big bundle of nerves. But it will all work out. Then once the wedding's over, we're married...and then I start worrying about Rob adopting Noah. There's always something.
Posted by Joy at June 25, 2003 10:08 AM