what size?

I've been wondering lately about sizes. Like, for instance, what size I'll be at goal.

It's been so long since I weighed 130 lbs...I only vaguely remember what it was like to be 19. I remember that my collarbones stood out, and that there was this one dress that actually made me look thin. (Of course, looking back at the pictures now, I realize that I was thin...I just wasn't a stick-girl like I thought I should be) I know I used to wear somewhere around an 9/10 when I was that size before...but I've had a kid since then. There are changes to my body that I won't be able to undo.

I'm also going to be much more fit this time around than I was. I've never been a very active person, and while I was at a good weight 10 years ago, it was a soft weight. What will my size be like with actual muscles under the skin? Bigger? Smaller? I wish I knew.

I've been trying to extrapolate it from size changes that have already occurred. When I was 217 (nude weight), I was a tight 18W, more comfortable 20W. Now I'm at 193, and I'm a loose 18 or 16W and a tight 16. So...in 24 lbs, I went down 2 sizes. That's down a size every 12 lbs. I have 63 lbs. left to go, divided by 12 is around 5 sizes. This would bring me down to a 6. I've never been a six, and I just don't think that's possible--my hips won't allow it. I can't even imagine myself as an 8.

I think I'm probably going to end up at right around 10, which is fine with me. If I can get my body toned and looking healthy, that's what I care about when it comes right down to it. Sometimes I just like to sit and wonder.